STPM is over and of course there's a sign of relief on everyone's face. the tradition continues. celebration the end of the exam? yes- had lunch together at the kopi-shop we always go. kinda lame but still ok.

well, the end of something is the beginning of another, rite? goodbye always pairs up with hello. the end of school life, the end of exam, that's what most of us have in mind but well, i'm more concern about the future.look too far ahead? it seems so but isnt that is more important than merely celebrating the end of exam?

today might be the last time i'll see some of my friends, until we meet up to take our results next year. kinda sad. they have been a whole bunch of nice people that spiced up my supposed-to-be-dull form6 life. it's a pity that i never have the time and opportunity to know some of them better. perhaps i might meet back some of them in the future. who knows?

it wasnt just about bidding goodbye to my friends, to the school as well. but 7 years is more than enough. frankly, i do cherish all the sweet memories i had while still this school but i will not forget all the misery that came along as well, in the past 7 years. that's why the experience is bittersweet.

actually, i feel guilty. i start hate myself for not doing enough. i have no one else to blame than myself for not giving my best. i can do better, i know that.

"aiyo, u can de la. dont think too much" that's what most all of my friends said to me. they are right, what's over is over. i agree to them but perhaps i need some time to adjust myself back to normal life.

another thing, i will have a really long holiday ( that i've been waiting for all this while?) will i miss school life? i'll have to wait and see. going for a vacation? no. no money. need to get a job. will i be lucky enough to meet some nice colleagues or have a wonderful working experience this time? hope so.

for the time being, i just want to relax my mind. perhaps will hang out with friends whom i didnt see for quite some time. some whom i always wanted to spend time with bout never have the opportunity before this. some whom i never seen for years. some whom i really missed. would be nice to chill out with them. a lot of things to catch up with.

by the way, i m going to sing k with pearly, man yit, wen cheong, siew wai tomorrow. kinda surprised that lunch-k at redbox wasnt fully booked. yeah, me and pearly will celebrate with the physics students. so kind of us, wait till u all finish then onli celebrate. haha