very long post

today was quite interesting. met jian fai and bought him to my workplace. had a pleasant conversation; mostly about jobs, his trip to europe and stuff, while he browsed at the shirts there. then he left to do his hair at kimarie.

just after he left, justin appeared out of no where, and as usual, cracked out some jokes. that certainly brighten up my day. thx alot

during my break, i suppose to find jian fai at kimarie but in the end didnt. it was so crowded there. later, met up with justin and wandered around aimlessly, at least there was someone to talk to.

did i mention that a girl approached me and asked me to do some charity? spend 20 bucks to buy 2 lousy pens help disabled people and the pen as souvenier. well i told her i'm broke and whether i can donate less sum of money.
"can"
"err... at least how much?"
" it's totally up to u..."
"how bout 1 bucks?"
her face turned gloomy
"thanks anyway..."
and she walked away
i was puzzled, speechless.
well amount of money is the measure of my sincerity? i guess, for her, yes. besides i have financial problems too, who gonna help me? she should have targeted those who earn alot isnt?

forget about that. jian fai kept to his promise and dropped by my place to show off me his new hair. he dyed his hair and highlighted the whole head. this is damn cool~* though looked lala a bit*. this is the only time when we can do what we like, cause after this, we wont have such oppurtunity anymore: uni life, work and work. i want to dye and highlight my hair too! but what job can i get after that?

around 6pm i had dinner at the stall once i always visit. well, there's just one more pork chop left. though i ate alone, i didnt feel lonely. perhaps i was too hungry?

when i was back, calvin greeted me and justin again appeared out of no where *again*, and what a coincidence that both turned out at the same time. justin was about to leave so i have some time to catch up with calvin.

someone who looks familiar was next to him. ivan!. and both of them looked so smart in shirts and slacks. white collar job la kononnya. and ivan asked if i'm interested to join him working for a credit card company and now he even has a name card. before that, most asked me to work i office instead. now that they know i have problems at workplace, they ask me to quit that job.

well, i know that working means dealing with people from all walks of life. there's many types of people that i'll meet. i realise that. but just that, i never expect that i'll be working with all the rotten apples, under one roof. actually, they are quite nice most of the time. just that they lose their mind when it comes to money.

i guess they turned ugly when sales and commission are involved. it's pretty normal. no, i'm not complaining how difficult life is, how the reality scares me. i have expected all this. just that his behaviour are "untolerable". i just cant people with childish attitude and immature mind.

to be very frank, the amount of sales one can do depends mainly on luck. let say someone plans to buy a whole new set of clothes and if u happen to serve him, definitely u r considered lucky. well, if the person doesnt intend to buy anything or dont have that much amount of money, no matter how well u serve him, he wont buy from u. it shows that there are certain things beyond our control isnt?

sometimes someone who tried almost everything in the shop might not buy anything at all. vice versa, someone just walk in, browse around, grab that shirt and headed to the cashier. he doesnt even need u to serve him at all. that's the reality, for those who never realise it.

and making a big fuss when the sales is poor doesnt help. neither nor jealous at ur friend when he is just doing slighty better than u. dealing with people like that is tough. oh i wonder why i spend so much time thinking about them?

i m very thankful cause i have a bunch of friends who listened to all my complaints. i guess they understand my situation. though they cant help much, but at least i know they are someone who will be there for me. thx to calvin, pearly, aichen, sis-s, keat, sang and friends for spending time to listen to my problems when there's other stuff that bothered them too.

aiseh life goes on no matter what. oops, did i make it as if sounds too serious? it's still ok. guys, i'll definetly hang on and wont give up like gan and kwan's incident. think again, it seems like i'm part of survivor, need to plot, scheme and have strategies? * i m so evil ?*

or take a more recent example la, kam ji yuk yip ( war and beauty). not about concubines fighting against each other for the king. this time, it's money. the mission is to outwit, outdo and outlast one another, and avoid being the outcast.*which i failed, cause of my banana-ness* perhaps i m too imaginative? haha... speaking of war and beauty, when i told yue ling my thoughts and her intial reaction was "u think u r which character?" -_-"

forget about them. calm down ady la. if last time, i surely throw words at him but dunno how i can be so patience? how come i can act as if nothing happens? guess that i really learnt up from the past.

calvin was right when he mentioned:
i understand ur feeling. just be happy k. ur on ur work, work4 money, try to find way to enjoy ur work, sure there's one, anything u can sms me.

last but not least, they love to replay a particular song again and again. shit la. dont they feel bored? i mentioned bout ye qu before rite? this time it is "bit guai ta"( dont blame him/her) by ron ng. sry to his fans, but i dont like this song.

wow. i've talked enough bout this. something really touched me happened while i was walking from lrt station. there were 2 blind people, a woman and a guy. it was pretty obvious that she was guiding him to walk back home from the lrt station. it's really amazing to see them travel all the way without any help from anyone. just rely on the walking stick and their instinct, how independent they are. i followed them closely behind just in case they need any help, especially in crossing the road. well, they didnt need that. i was really amazed by their will to survive and live like normal ppl. this reminded me of a movie by miriam and tony leung. anyone actually watch that before? think, if u suddenly become blind, do u have the will to live like normal people? and for that i m very thankful for being blessed with sight, even though im short-sighted. i still have my specs anyway

guess that's all for today.

oh ya, have been chatting alot with aichen bout certain type of people. both of us shared lots thoughts, stories from friends and experiences bout them and it was so funny la. if u wanna know, ask me. i dont think i shud post it in my blog as it could be offensive.

another shock of the day. my sis came back. to be precise, she came back from australia. she told us that it's gonna be friday and she will give a surprise. yeah yeah i m very surprised.-_-" haha.at least now my younger sis wont kacau me so much. right now unpack her stuffs.

i have spouted out so much nonsense. it's my blog anyway. i can write almost watever i wish to rite? of course i wont screw up things but pouring all things out but i can assure u i didnt lie or make up stories.

yeah, i'm so tired. tired of life. tired of someone. tired of them...

i cant pls u guys anymore. to these ppl, pls give me a break k?